Disillusioned

One of these days you read a book, you watch a movie, or even a phrase you may have heard somewhere that can affect you deeply. I read Solanin a while ago and it took a while to wrap my head around it. It's so bittersweet and has grasped the reality around us so well. Each character has a flaw you can relate to. You fall in love with them and then wish you hadn't.

Here are a couple of quotes from it:

"When you feel the tiniest bit of warmth and that disappears...do you know how that feels?"

"The fear that comes with facing something serious...the fear of losing your way back to how things were before. As time passes, your options dwindle to fewer and fewer."


That's the problem with life. You never get enough time to stare at your ceiling and try to figure out what's going on.


Fireworks are so beautiful, but that same gunpowder can kill people. 


The monster who whispered, "set yourself free" in my ear...was it freedom itself?

On rishta aunties and the odd servings of tea.

It's been very very long since I last posted here. I'd blame it on university, but since you all know how much I actually study let's just blame it on twitter. Okay? Okay.

So, I wrote this speech on rishta aunties & the tea-trolley system for class. Was supposed to be in urdu. Thought I'd share it here. Much love to Maryam for all the help ♥.

"Humaray maashray main jab shaadi honi hoti hai, tou larkay walay pehle larki walon k yahan rishta ley k jaatay hain, khaas kar k agar arranged hoti hai. Arrange karwata kaun hai aakhir? Humaray maashray main ek rishtay wali aunty ka keera hota hai. Jin ka kaam sirf aur sirf sab ki shaadi karana hota hai. Har waqt apnay purse main ek photo album le ke ghoomti hain aur aisay gharon ki talaash main rehti hain jahan ke bachay bachay nahi rehtay. Shaadiyon main, dawaton main, harr jaga ley k jaayein gi yeh tasveerein, aur phir aap ki ammi k kaan main khusar phusar karna shuru kardein gi. Larkiyon ko dhoondtay huay sab ki khwaishein bohat hoti hain. Larki ki rangat gori, kamar patli, qadd acha, aur umer choti honi chahiye. Larki parhi likhi honi chahiye, magar woh uss parhai likhai ka istimaal nahin kar sakti. Larka jaisa bhi ho. Larkay k kirdaar k baaray main sawal karein ge tou woh loug naraz hojatay hain. Iss baat ko woh loug bura samajhtay hain. Larki k liye sab kuch chalta hai. Rishtay wali aunty aati hain aur aap ko batayein gi k "client ko doctor bahu chahiye, jo k shaadi k baad kaam nahin karay." Dawaton main jaa k har 16 saal ki larki ya 20 saal k larkay se kahein gi "Beta, kitne baray hogaye ho. Shaadi karne ka socha hai ab tak?". Sab ki umer nikli jaa rahi hoti hai tou bus sab parhai likhai chor k shadi karna shuru kardein. Kya aap se kabhi kisi ne yeh sawal kiya hai? Kya aap kisi rishtay wali aunty ko jaantay hain?

Iss maashray main ek nizam bana hua hai rishton ka. Larkay walay larki walon k ghar atay hain, larki ek trolley pe chai ley k aati hai aur un logon ko serve karti hai. Gaanon main bhi aap ko yeh bataya jaata hai, jaise k “Shayad meri shaadi ka khayal dil main aaya hai, isi liye mummy ne meri tumhe chai pe bulaya hai.” Phir uss ek chai pilanay ki mulaqaat k baad ya tou rishta aata hai ya nahin aata. Iss hi saqafat k upar tv pe ishtihaar bhi aatay hain. Jaise k ek ishtihaar aaya tha Tapal ki chai ki patti ka, uss main ek larki apne imtihaanon main position ley k aayi thi. Uss k baad woh ghar pohnchti hai aur uskay sar pe dupatta daala jaata hai aur uskay haath main ek chai ki tray pakrayi jaati hai.

Jab aap in cheezon ko farogh dein ge tou aakhir humara kya hoga? Aagay ki naslon ka kya hoga? Zara sochiye. "

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Procrastination

Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow. - Mark Twain

So as some of you may know, my A Level exams are coming up in the next 3 weeks. And how much have I studied? Not. a. fucking. page.

And who's fault is that? Procrastination's.

Procrastination is not my friend. It is my worst enemy right now. It has been holding me and hasn't let go for the past year. Someone please arrest it. Kill it. Burn it. Kill it with fire. Gauge it's eyes out.

See the effect on me?

Anyways. This post on procrastination was due to said procrastination. Said procrastination which will cause me to fail. That and Facebook and Twitter.

I'll finish this later. Too lazy. Bye. (That and I think I hear my mother's footsteps)

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Fight Club Review

Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

1. This review is based on my reading of the first few chapters, and of watching the movie.

2. I saw the movie around a month or two ago. Movie Over Book, hands down.

3. You do NOT talk about Fight Club.

So I watched the movie of this a while ago, and LOVED it. Even though it's a guy-oriented movie. It may not be for all kinds of girls though since I seem to sympathize with guys a lot. Anyways, I knew it was based on a book but was too lazy to read hence watched the movie and now picked up the book. Can I just say how amazingly the movie captures what the book says? When I started reading this, every single scene I read played vividly in my mind, the quotes, the narration, the acting. Kudos to the actors and director.

It was actually the scenes playing in my head which forced me to put this down. I couldn't concentrate on the book without thinking of the movie. The same scenes seemed bland in a way the way they read off the pages. Had I read the book first, I may not have enjoyed the movie as much, nor would I have enjoyed the book as much as I enjoyed the movie.

I didn't really like the writing of Chuck Palahniuk. The quotes, yes. But I recommend you to watch the movie instead. Full of awesomeness.

I am Jack's broken heart.

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The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo Review

The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Eighteen percent of the women in Sweden have at one time been threatened by a man.

One thing I'd like to say first. The title of this book is quite misleading. This book has much to do with a girl - but not quite much to do with the girl who has the dragon tattoo. The tattoo is mentioned once, I believe, and the topic is let alone. The mysteries of this book are not completely wrapped up, and so there are sequels. There were a few things I misunderstood about this book when I picked it up and I'd like to clear those up:

1. I thought it'd have much to do with the girl with the dragon tattoo (Salandar, her name is.), as I said above.
2. That it was Young-Adult. Trust me, this is NOT young adult. I'd suggest this for you if you're 16+ at least, there are some very disturbing visuals in this.

So, the beginning...
The narration in the beginning was quite hard to get into. After a few chapters, the story picks up though.

The Story...
So, Mikael Blomkvist is a journalist. He's hired to find out a mystery. A 36 year old mystery about a missing girl. With complications and other mysteries surrounding this, he tries to work out this historical mystery. What comes out of this mystery comes out as a surprise to many, and I'm sure it'll be a surprise to you too.

The characters...
Mikael. A financial journalist whose reputation has fallen, and so he takes the offer he's given (big bucks involved in that as well) to write a book containing the chronicles of the Vanger family, and (the real objective) to find out what happened to Harriet Vanger in 1966 when she disappeared. Not much to say about him, he wasn't a bore or incredibly exciting to read about...he was okay.

Salandar. Lisbeth Salandar. The girl with the dragon tattoo She's a mystery on her own until the end, hence the sequels I believe. Annoying at times, but mostly just full of secrets waiting to be revealed in the next book...

The mystery...
The mystery was...actually a mystery. It keeps you in suspense until the very end, and the things revealed are quite a surprise.

The Name and the Main Topic...
The original name of this book was supposed to be Män som hatar kvinnor (Men Who Hate Women) which is a MUCH more fitting title, in my opinion. Sad to say that the insane treatment of women that happened in this novel does occur in real life, still. Rape is still a big issue. I know of a girl who got raped a few years ago, and she reported it. Yet, no action was taken much to my dismay. At times, society and culture are still male dominant. And it's very trying for women then.

The narration got tedious at times, and Salandar gets aggravating, and GOD, the relationships were so...dysfunctional. Erika and Mikael's relationship...I won't even comment on that. *shakes head thinking about it*

Overall, a great mystery though. Much recommended to fans of mystery. Getting through the first part is hard, but the rest is a breeze.

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Small Update...

I haven't posted for a while, I shall have rants and reviews up sometime this week. Coming soon...

Till then, ta-ta. *pops out*